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I believe you may be correct.

Oh, I so wish you could. I feel that you are patient enough that you would learn to understand her.

Tim? When you reply with "oh" I have noticed it usually means that you are bothered.

[ Called out on brat behavior... ]

I'm not bothered. I'm...wary.

Of what, my darling? Have I done something wrong?

No, you haven't.

He seems nice. It's my own problem.

He is. He is also much more intelligent than he comes off.

Do you wish me to cease seeing anyone but you?

No, I don't. That wouldn't be fair.

Okay, this is gonna sound really stupid.

But he won that stupid vote. [ Biggest slut. ] And I'm not judging him for it. But what if he's better than me? At...whatever it is you're doing.

No, it would not be fair. But I would do it all the same, if you asked.

Tim, I think you may be judging just a little.

Oh my dearest darling. No.

I will not tease you for such thoughts, as I would be a liar if I said that I have not had similar fears. Your other lovers are objectively much more virile, much more handsome. Hawk is a veritable Adonis with decades of erotic experience.

But that matters not. I've no idea how I captured your affections but against all odds I have. That is what is important.

I trust that you are not secretly comparing us to one another. Am I correct in this?

I don't want you to do anything I ask, even if it's not fair to you. You deserve better.

I'm not comparing you.

[ Mostly. He's not keeping score, but there's differences, of course there are. If he were just like Hawk, or vise versa, he wouldn't need them both. ]

I'm just being insecure. That's not your fault. I need to work on that.

A veritable Adonis, though.

Are you attracted to him?

I don't know that I do.

Then you see my point. You are not the same men, and you've no reason to be jealous. In fact, I feel that if you were to talk about anything but intercourse you'd get along quite well.

It is alright, Tim. I am not upset with you.

He is undeniably an attractive man.

Do what I say when I tell you to trust me on that, then.

Maybe. This is still so new, though. I don't know what to expect when I think about other people. Since I don't know you inside and out yet.

Sure. But I wasn't asking objectively.

As you wish.

Don't you? I would tell you anything you want to know.

[So much for that dodge.]

Yes, but in a different way.

I know. And I would for you. But it couldn't occur to me to ask everything there is to know in...what's it been, a couple months? And I was dead or not myself for a good chunk of it. Discovering each other is part of the fun.

What way is that?

No, you are correct. And I do apologise. I recognise that my feelings for you are intense, and probably happened inappropriately fast.

He reminds me of certain officers I have known. Very masculine men who have no desire for the more affectionate side of love.

You don't have to apologize. It's always been fast for me, too.

Well...that's not true. I'm sure it seems like it. But he is affectionate. I'm not neglected.

I've never been in love like this before.

Oh, no, of course not! I know perfectly well that it isn't the case.
But you asked how I found him attractive.

"Always" oversells my experience, I guess. It's only been Hawk. There were some here that I thought could have gotten there, but something always goes wrong.

I'm glad it did though. If it left me open for you.

You find him attractive...because he doesn't seem like the kind of guy who cuddles when you're done?

Oh, Tim.

[He's going to expire from embarrassment.]

He comes across like the kind of man who frigs you in the slops closet and never makes eye contact again, yes.