One of the first people that I met here informed me that homosexuality isn't nearly as looked down on as it used to be, that it's not illegal and actually can have recognized marraiges in many places, including the United States - and still, the first time that I even held another man's hand here, I felt like I had to look over my shoulder, like maybe he was pulling my leg and the police were on their way after all.
So I understand. We certainly did more than hold hands last night.
I'd still very much like to see you this afternoon. I can come to you, if meeting in your room wouldn't be too inappropriate, considering the change in our relationship.
Yes, that's very much the feeling! It is a serious offense in my time, although depending on where you are it isn't that often enforced. Once again, there is quite a gulf between what we claim to be and what we are.
I would be honoured if you were to visit me.
I believe we can be trusted alone together.
[Bullshit, he just wants to be able to touch those pecs.]
I know the feeling very well. But I’ve been here for nearly a year, so I can promise you, it won’t be punished. Sometimes it’s actually rewarded.
Gym, and then breakfast, and then I need to help out with some things at the restaurant. After that, I’m all yours. I’ll need to run back to my room to get my ipod and the speaker. I’ll find something you’ll like.
You have provided me with much relief, Tim. I look forward to seeing you.
[He's actually glad to have some time because it means he can settle his mind further. And clean up his room (although it's near spotless already) and make himself look presentable. This naturally still means layers - trousers, shirt, waistcoat, coat. It's hard to look in the closet and reach for, say, just a sweater. He supposes he should try, but...
He has tea and water available for whenever Tim comes by, of course. Harry himself is - unsurprisingly - reading.]
[ Tim, on the other hand, is perfectly comfortable just reaching for a sweater with a thin tank underneath, pairing it with dark blue jeans and a big smile. He pulls his shoes off at the door once he's let in, and greets him with a kiss. But he doesn't linger, instead fiddling with cords to a little speaker he's got, which has to then plug into the ipod, then...there. ]
[ He’s perched on the edge of the armchair, with the speaker set up on a table right beside him, as he scrolls through a bit to make sure his playlist has only the best on it. Once he’s sure it’s perfect, he smiles up at Harry, invites him to sit beside him. ]
The device is new, but the song isn’t. It’s from a musical from the 40s called Oklahoma. A romance. I heard they made a movie a little after I left, but I haven’t gotten to it yet. Even after this long, there’s so much to catch up with, I’ll never see it all. We should go again though, I’ll show you something more narrative.
[ Though Planet Earth was, admittedly, fantastic. But enough yapping. ]
Here, you just roll your thumb around the outside, and press the middle one to choose. Fever’s good. A little suggestive, but not as much as the stuff from last night.
[He nods, not fully understanding but eager to absorb this new media. All of his awkward embarrassment is gone, replaced by almost childlike wonder.
He selects 'Fever' and listens with rapt attention. He's used to songs sung by men as they work, the occasional tune plunked out on a piano. The sultry sound of Peggy Lee and the bass behind her is entirely new to his ears.
Harry looks at Tim with open enjoyment, completely at a loss as to what to say.]
[ Watching as Harry listens, charmed by his open appreciation, the wonder of it. His own shock had come from the advancement in electronics that would allow him to easily carry it all over here more from the music at all, on account of not liking much of the modern stuff (Fleetwood Mac was good though - maybe later), but now that he thinks of it...Tim has no idea what they did for music in the 1840s. Sea shanties? The opera, if one were well-off?
As subtly as he can manage (which isn't very), Tim slides down from the arm of the chair and into Harry's lap, letting one arm hang loosely around his shoulders while he watches him get familiar with the device. ]
It can store hundreds of songs. You could have it on all day and not even repeat one. There's a catch, though.
[Harry nods. He takes Tim into his lap almost absently, so enchanted with the music is he. He wraps an arm around Tim's waist and keeps him close as he listens.
Harry blinks and looks up.]
There is?
[He lets the device play whatever is next on the playlist, staring at Tim with wide hazel eyes.]
[ He regrets it as soon as the words come out of his mouth, betrayed by a deep blush that creeps down his neck, and with nowhere to hide, since Harry's looking up at him. Tim covers the bottom of his face with his hand and leaves the ipod to play, looking down and sighing through his lips before he explains. ]
Under normal circumstances, I think, you would buy new songs for it, but since there's no real currency here, I get credits I can trade for new ones every time I...um. Engage. Intimately.
[The music distracts Harry for a moment, but then he's watching Tim carefully. The blush makes sense soon enough, and one rises in his own cheeks in return.]
I see.
[Gently, he nuzzles Tim's neck.]
Then you'll never be wanting for more music, I suspect.
[ Tim's jaw drops, gasping at the audacity. Or is it, perhaps, lips and beard rubbing against his neck, as if he's looking for the mark left last night, right beneath his collar? It tickles enough to make him laugh and squirm in his lap. ]
What kind of boy do you take me for? You make it sound like I have men lining up down the hallway!
[ It's not untrue. It's a surprise though, to hear him speculate on it at all - for Tim's entire time here, he's been trying to find a way to comfortably adapt to the lifestyle here without too much awkwardness or jealousy. He hasn't found that balance, but the closest he's gotten is acceptance without asking detailed questions. Speculating on his lovers' sex lives with other people is something he tries not to do at all.
He shifts so that he's facing Harry, straddling his hips and getting comfortable, squeezing strong thighs around him and putting his hands around the back of his neck. ]
Don't think about anyone else right now, okay? Unless it's Frank Sinatra.
No! Good Lord, Tim, that would be awfully inappropriate of us to discuss. I just assumed, as I can't imagine men not wanting to please you.
[Oh, yeah. That's a lap full of Tim alright. Harry's mouth suddenly feels dry. He loops his arms around Tim's waist after letting the iPod rest on the seat cushion.
[ Harry's...praise? Flattery? Maybe it's just honest esteem. Whatever it is, it's overwhelming. It's not especially true, even, outside the two men relevant enough to mention, but he says it like he believes it, he looks at him as if he were the sort of beauty that wars get fought over.
Easily impressed, from so much time in isolation. Tim will enjoy it while he can. ]
That's the singer.
[ He leans back just enough to take his glasses off, folding them carefully and setting them on the table next to the speaker. ]
Do you want to please me, Harry?
[ Asking a question he knows the answer to, because he's sure it'll sound even better than Sinatra. ]
[Once again Harry finds his heart hammering hard enough to shake his chest. His hands creep up Tim's back, cartographers mapping its hills and valleys.]
[ His fingers are running over soft cashmere and hard muscle underneath, his shoulders flexed to keep his arms held around Harry’s. It makes Tim squirm, in a good, anticipatory way, settling down over his hips and leaning in until their chests are nearly flush, heartbeat thudding violently, eager to burst through and join the other behind his ribs and leave Tim’s own empty. Ready to be filled up with more adoring words and needy caresses.
He holds his face with both hands, cradling him, claiming him. His eyes are warm, but there’s a spark of something hungrier in them. It’s just been waiting for the time and place. ]
[He's not so blind that he can't see what Tim craves. He has, after all, learned a little bit about the other men in Tim's life. Strong men who no doubt have the upper hand on all situations. Not soft intellectuals more at home in a library than out rowing or hunting.
You're not THAT soft, Harry, he thinks. In more ways than one. Indeed, Tim is consistently helping him prove that the human sex drive can bounce back quite remarkably.
He puts a hand on the back of Tim's head and gently tugs him down for a kiss. It's not nearly as polite as he means it to be - all scorching heat and slick tongue in a matter of seconds.]
[ If he needed a strong, confident, dominant man to lead the way for him, he has Hawk at home. There would be no point to this phase of exploration if he were just looking for multiples of what he already has. That's what's in his comfort zone, that's what's easiest for him to lean into his desire for, but he wants to know him more than he wants any particular attitude or act. Tim would rather Harry just be Harry, confident that whatever he is and whatever he wants, he'll like, too.
(But make no mistake, Tim is certainly not immune to a forceful hand...)
So far, Harry has been spurts of boldness, a gentle voice, grace and understanding that's in such short supply around here. He's tried so hard to be a gentleman that Tim doesn't know yet what he'll like. Here's hoping he can draw it out of him, unwrap the mystery like a Christmas gift.
His lips open to accept him immediately, moaning back into the kiss and taking a chance, pushing it further, plucking at the ribbon on the wrapping paper - but more literally, the buttons on his waistcoat. ]
Not too much?
[ The unbuttoning, the very deliberate moving around in his lap, the searing lap of his tongue from Harry's own to the soft gnawing at his earlobe. ]
[What Harry likes is still a bit of a mystery even to Harry. He's had some experiences, but all of them were brief and loveless. His fantasies are rarely considered except when he's alone, and even then they're things that are quickly examined and then put away.
He has to pull his mouth back to answer.]
Not too much.
[In fact, he lets go of Tim so he can awkwardly wriggle out of his coat, and then his vest once Tim has it undone. He's left still very much covered with his shirt and braces and trousers, but it feels scandalous.
He kisses Tim's neck.]
No, not too much at all.
[Slowly, Harry lets his hands slide to the hem of Tim's sweater and, after a moment of hesitation, slip underneath. He inhales sharply at the feel of the smooth skin of Tim's back. He hides his burning face in Tim's neck, but can't hide the way his hips twitch upward.]
[ That it's not too much. that the lips on his neck make him shiver, that he can feel Harry's cock growing thick and hard alongside his. Tim's mouth waters for it, sure in an instant of exactly what he wants.
Knowing and expressing it are different things. He's become accustomed to having someone who may as well be a mind reader. Harry’s not there yet, but Tim’s not hard to figure out. He’s reactive, shivering and gasping into every touch, nodding furiously with a half-hum, half-moan mmhmm when his hands dive beneath his sweater to stroke bare skin.
He raises his arms so he can take it off him, revealing firm muscle and blanket of hair on his chest which narrows into a fuzzy trail pointed down the front of his jeans. "dirtylaundry" certainly wasn't lying, and Harry's made the short list of people he doesn't mind knowing. All that drama will be worth it, if he keeps looking at Tim like that. ]
You too.
[ He has to stop kissing him to work at the clasps on his suspenders, to know his body the way he hopes to. Prove his affection for every inch. ]
[The words slip out unbidden, almost comically earnest. But Tim is like some shining dream, sitting there with the body of a young god and a smile bright enough to shame the sun.
He can feel Tim's hands fumbling with buttons and has to reconcile himself with the fact that he's going to have to undress. It's a daunting prospect for several reasons, not the least of which is that Harry's positive that the reality of his flesh will be a disappointment.
But, on the other hand... he's harder than he's ever been in his life. So he ignores decorum and embarrassment both, helping Tim get his braces down and his shirt undone and then pulled over his head and tossed aside.
Harry is pale, still thin in a way that speaks of ill health, with thick dark hair spreading over his chest and down his belly. He doesn't give Tim a chance to look, pulling the younger man as close to him possible as he kisses him again and again. His hands move over Tim's back and chest and arms greedily before they dare to drop to his thighs and squeeze.]
[ He doesn't get much of a chance to look at him, but he feels as much as he can. He's thin, which is no surprise, barely a month out from his years trapped in the ice. Not his usual type, sure - but he likes it because it'a Harry, sweet Harry, who's been nothing but honest and vulnerable with him. The body that brought him here, the body that feels so divine pressed to his now. Tim wants him as he is.
Fingers rake through the thick hair on his chest, scratching lightly at his skin, going from the softness of his fingertips to the scrape of his nails to see what he reacts to, still exploring, desperate to know what he wants and give it to him. Tim's a pleaser, and Harry deserves to be pleased.
A soft, encouraging sound rumbles into Harry's mouth from his, as soon as he's got his hands on his thighs, but Tim has his sights set elsewhere. One more long, indulgent lick into the other man's mouth, before he readjusts to kiss further down, his neck and his collarbone, sliding down his body until he can bury his nose in that hair and breathe deep. It makes him suddenly extremely regretful of his choice to wear constricting jeans, riled up now by the scent of warm skin, lilac cologne, and Harry.
His hands spread to cover as much as possible, leave no piece of him untouched. The last people to touch him had done so with ill-intent, to butcher him, desecrate his corpse and take pieces of him for themselves. Tim can't undo that. But he can lay his hands on him lovingly instead, with pleasure instead of pain, a vital spark of life instead of prolonging a slow death. ]
You smell good.
[ Muffled into his chest between wet kisses, before he trails down further, falling down to his knees on the carpet before him. ]
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Date: 2025-04-14 07:31 pm (UTC)So I understand. We certainly did more than hold hands last night.
I'd still very much like to see you this afternoon. I can come to you, if meeting in your room wouldn't be too inappropriate, considering the change in our relationship.
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Date: 2025-04-14 08:10 pm (UTC)I would be honoured if you were to visit me.
I believe we can be trusted alone together.
[Bullshit, he just wants to be able to touch those pecs.]
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Date: 2025-04-14 08:36 pm (UTC)Gym, and then breakfast, and then I need to help out with some things at the restaurant. After that, I’m all yours. I’ll need to run back to my room to get my ipod and the speaker. I’ll find something you’ll like.
And I trust you.
[ to get, respectfully, hornt up. ]
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Date: 2025-04-14 09:17 pm (UTC)You don't need to rush on my account.
You have provided me with much relief, Tim. I look forward to seeing you.
[He's actually glad to have some time because it means he can settle his mind further. And clean up his room (although it's near spotless already) and make himself look presentable. This naturally still means layers - trousers, shirt, waistcoat, coat. It's hard to look in the closet and reach for, say, just a sweater. He supposes he should try, but...
He has tea and water available for whenever Tim comes by, of course. Harry himself is - unsurprisingly - reading.]
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Date: 2025-04-14 09:37 pm (UTC)Come here, I'll show you how it works.
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Date: 2025-04-14 09:55 pm (UTC)He trails after Tim, watching curiously. The sudden music surprises and, predictably, delights him.]
Please, yes.
[A whole world, he thinks. A whole world available through the touch of a few buttons.]
What is this? Is this from your time?
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Date: 2025-04-14 10:20 pm (UTC)The device is new, but the song isn’t. It’s from a musical from the 40s called Oklahoma. A romance. I heard they made a movie a little after I left, but I haven’t gotten to it yet. Even after this long, there’s so much to catch up with, I’ll never see it all. We should go again though, I’ll show you something more narrative.
[ Though Planet Earth was, admittedly, fantastic. But enough yapping. ]
Here, you just roll your thumb around the outside, and press the middle one to choose. Fever’s good. A little suggestive, but not as much as the stuff from last night.
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Date: 2025-04-14 10:35 pm (UTC)He selects 'Fever' and listens with rapt attention. He's used to songs sung by men as they work, the occasional tune plunked out on a piano. The sultry sound of Peggy Lee and the bass behind her is entirely new to his ears.
Harry looks at Tim with open enjoyment, completely at a loss as to what to say.]
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Date: 2025-04-15 12:33 am (UTC)[ Watching as Harry listens, charmed by his open appreciation, the wonder of it. His own shock had come from the advancement in electronics that would allow him to easily carry it all over here more from the music at all, on account of not liking much of the modern stuff (Fleetwood Mac was good though - maybe later), but now that he thinks of it...Tim has no idea what they did for music in the 1840s. Sea shanties? The opera, if one were well-off?
As subtly as he can manage (which isn't very), Tim slides down from the arm of the chair and into Harry's lap, letting one arm hang loosely around his shoulders while he watches him get familiar with the device. ]
It can store hundreds of songs. You could have it on all day and not even repeat one. There's a catch, though.
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Date: 2025-04-15 01:47 am (UTC)Harry blinks and looks up.]
There is?
[He lets the device play whatever is next on the playlist, staring at Tim with wide hazel eyes.]
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Date: 2025-04-15 02:10 am (UTC)Under normal circumstances, I think, you would buy new songs for it, but since there's no real currency here, I get credits I can trade for new ones every time I...um. Engage. Intimately.
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Date: 2025-04-15 02:18 am (UTC)I see.
[Gently, he nuzzles Tim's neck.]
Then you'll never be wanting for more music, I suspect.
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Date: 2025-04-15 03:44 am (UTC)[ Tim's jaw drops, gasping at the audacity. Or is it, perhaps, lips and beard rubbing against his neck, as if he's looking for the mark left last night, right beneath his collar? It tickles enough to make him laugh and squirm in his lap. ]
What kind of boy do you take me for? You make it sound like I have men lining up down the hallway!
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Date: 2025-04-15 03:59 am (UTC)[Ah. Yes. There is a mark, and that fact does things to Goodsir's libido that he wouldn't have expected. The squirming doesn't hurt, either.]
Or at least, I should hope so.
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Date: 2025-04-15 04:57 am (UTC)[ It's not untrue. It's a surprise though, to hear him speculate on it at all - for Tim's entire time here, he's been trying to find a way to comfortably adapt to the lifestyle here without too much awkwardness or jealousy. He hasn't found that balance, but the closest he's gotten is acceptance without asking detailed questions. Speculating on his lovers' sex lives with other people is something he tries not to do at all.
He shifts so that he's facing Harry, straddling his hips and getting comfortable, squeezing strong thighs around him and putting his hands around the back of his neck. ]
Don't think about anyone else right now, okay? Unless it's Frank Sinatra.
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Date: 2025-04-15 05:14 am (UTC)[Oh, yeah. That's a lap full of Tim alright. Harry's mouth suddenly feels dry. He loops his arms around Tim's waist after letting the iPod rest on the seat cushion.
He looks up into his face, enraptured.]
I couldn't possibly. Even if I knew who that was.
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Date: 2025-04-15 05:52 am (UTC)Easily impressed, from so much time in isolation. Tim will enjoy it while he can. ]
That's the singer.
[ He leans back just enough to take his glasses off, folding them carefully and setting them on the table next to the speaker. ]
Do you want to please me, Harry?
[ Asking a question he knows the answer to, because he's sure it'll sound even better than Sinatra. ]
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Date: 2025-04-15 02:44 pm (UTC)Yes, Tim. Desperately so.
[Once again Harry finds his heart hammering hard enough to shake his chest. His hands creep up Tim's back, cartographers mapping its hills and valleys.]
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Date: 2025-04-15 03:53 pm (UTC)He holds his face with both hands, cradling him, claiming him. His eyes are warm, but there’s a spark of something hungrier in them. It’s just been waiting for the time and place. ]
I want to please you, too, Harry.
[ A plea, more than it is an admission. ]
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Date: 2025-04-15 04:36 pm (UTC)You're not THAT soft, Harry, he thinks. In more ways than one. Indeed, Tim is consistently helping him prove that the human sex drive can bounce back quite remarkably.
He puts a hand on the back of Tim's head and gently tugs him down for a kiss. It's not nearly as polite as he means it to be - all scorching heat and slick tongue in a matter of seconds.]
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Date: 2025-04-15 05:35 pm (UTC)(But make no mistake, Tim is certainly not immune to a forceful hand...)
So far, Harry has been spurts of boldness, a gentle voice, grace and understanding that's in such short supply around here. He's tried so hard to be a gentleman that Tim doesn't know yet what he'll like. Here's hoping he can draw it out of him, unwrap the mystery like a Christmas gift.
His lips open to accept him immediately, moaning back into the kiss and taking a chance, pushing it further, plucking at the ribbon on the wrapping paper - but more literally, the buttons on his waistcoat. ]
Not too much?
[ The unbuttoning, the very deliberate moving around in his lap, the searing lap of his tongue from Harry's own to the soft gnawing at his earlobe. ]
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Date: 2025-04-15 06:30 pm (UTC)He has to pull his mouth back to answer.]
Not too much.
[In fact, he lets go of Tim so he can awkwardly wriggle out of his coat, and then his vest once Tim has it undone. He's left still very much covered with his shirt and braces and trousers, but it feels scandalous.
He kisses Tim's neck.]
No, not too much at all.
[Slowly, Harry lets his hands slide to the hem of Tim's sweater and, after a moment of hesitation, slip underneath. He inhales sharply at the feel of the smooth skin of Tim's back. He hides his burning face in Tim's neck, but can't hide the way his hips twitch upward.]
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Date: 2025-04-15 08:24 pm (UTC)[ That it's not too much. that the lips on his neck make him shiver, that he can feel Harry's cock growing thick and hard alongside his. Tim's mouth waters for it, sure in an instant of exactly what he wants.
Knowing and expressing it are different things. He's become accustomed to having someone who may as well be a mind reader. Harry’s not there yet, but Tim’s not hard to figure out. He’s reactive, shivering and gasping into every touch, nodding furiously with a half-hum, half-moan mmhmm when his hands dive beneath his sweater to stroke bare skin.
He raises his arms so he can take it off him, revealing firm muscle and blanket of hair on his chest which narrows into a fuzzy trail pointed down the front of his jeans. "dirtylaundry" certainly wasn't lying, and Harry's made the short list of people he doesn't mind knowing. All that drama will be worth it, if he keeps looking at Tim like that. ]
You too.
[ He has to stop kissing him to work at the clasps on his suspenders, to know his body the way he hopes to. Prove his affection for every inch. ]
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Date: 2025-04-15 09:27 pm (UTC)[The words slip out unbidden, almost comically earnest. But Tim is like some shining dream, sitting there with the body of a young god and a smile bright enough to shame the sun.
He can feel Tim's hands fumbling with buttons and has to reconcile himself with the fact that he's going to have to undress. It's a daunting prospect for several reasons, not the least of which is that Harry's positive that the reality of his flesh will be a disappointment.
But, on the other hand... he's harder than he's ever been in his life. So he ignores decorum and embarrassment both, helping Tim get his braces down and his shirt undone and then pulled over his head and tossed aside.
Harry is pale, still thin in a way that speaks of ill health, with thick dark hair spreading over his chest and down his belly. He doesn't give Tim a chance to look, pulling the younger man as close to him possible as he kisses him again and again. His hands move over Tim's back and chest and arms greedily before they dare to drop to his thighs and squeeze.]
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Date: 2025-04-15 10:18 pm (UTC)Fingers rake through the thick hair on his chest, scratching lightly at his skin, going from the softness of his fingertips to the scrape of his nails to see what he reacts to, still exploring, desperate to know what he wants and give it to him. Tim's a pleaser, and Harry deserves to be pleased.
A soft, encouraging sound rumbles into Harry's mouth from his, as soon as he's got his hands on his thighs, but Tim has his sights set elsewhere. One more long, indulgent lick into the other man's mouth, before he readjusts to kiss further down, his neck and his collarbone, sliding down his body until he can bury his nose in that hair and breathe deep. It makes him suddenly extremely regretful of his choice to wear constricting jeans, riled up now by the scent of warm skin, lilac cologne, and Harry.
His hands spread to cover as much as possible, leave no piece of him untouched. The last people to touch him had done so with ill-intent, to butcher him, desecrate his corpse and take pieces of him for themselves. Tim can't undo that. But he can lay his hands on him lovingly instead, with pleasure instead of pain, a vital spark of life instead of prolonging a slow death. ]
You smell good.
[ Muffled into his chest between wet kisses, before he trails down further, falling down to his knees on the carpet before him. ]
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