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[mygoodsir]

I will always, always have time for you. No matter what.

[holyposition]

I was teasing. I know you will.

But I appreciate the warning. Especially if I'll be bumping into him a lot.

[mygoodsir]

Oh! My apologies. I can be a little overbearing!

You probably will.


Oh. If you happen to see what looks like a very young man around, please know he's actually 30.

[holyposition]

You're not at all. It's a nice change of pace.

How young?

[mygoodsir]

Oh, good. Because I cannot seem to stop singing your praises.

Well, I thought he was eighteen last month.

[holyposition]

Wow. He really was shameless. I don't know how to take the fact that you keep getting pulled to men who look younger than they are.

(teasing!)

You're okay, right? I don't want to sound judgemental, that's not what I mean. It's just the last time I was with a bunch of new people in a short time, I was having a really hard time. And trying to distract myself, I guess.

[mygoodsir]

He remains so.

I don't know what to make of it either! I certainly don't go looking for them, they just seem to show up!

I believe I am alright. It's very strange, though. I hate who I was in June, but some people I was close to then I still feel a fondness for. I am lucky in that most of them I already knew - you, Koby, Theo and his wife, Will, "Alaric" - and so anything beyond friendship does not feel forced. But it is slightly unsettling to be so

What is the word?

Slutty.

[holyposition]

I hope I'm not close to aging out of your favor 😜

I feel the same way sometimes. But I care about all the men I'm sleeping with. None of you are strangers or people I'm only choosing because I've been drugged or I'm trying to drown out some bad feelings. As long as you actually care about them and you have the energy to maintain all that, you could definitely do worse.

But you don't have to sleep with them just because the other you did, either. Find what makes you happy. This is a place to discover what you really want.

As long as they're not wringing you dry, if you get what I mean. 😉

[mygoodsir]

Tim! Never! You could be eighty and I'd still love you fervently.

I can't imagine not caring about them. I feel grateful for their presence in my life.

Tim, you remain a beacon of rationality and kindness both. Thank you for your understanding, and for your advice. I am sometimes overwhelmed by the freedom we have here.

Tim! Don't be ridiculous.
I need that for you.

[holyposition]

Just tell me if it's serious?

Yeah. It can be a little much. I'm more comfortable limiting myself, I think, but it's still overwhelming after a whole year. Back home I never thought I'd have one boyfriend I could be public with, let alone two.

Yes you do! 🥰

[mygoodsir]

You mean if I fall in love with them? Yes. I will.

If I had even made it home to England, I could not imagine ever finding anyone to love. I was never very good with courtship in the first place, and after everything else...
But here? I found you. And I so very quickly came to love you. It was frightening, but fantastic.

You are a terribly naughty boy, Tim.

[holyposition]

Or if you think you might. Whatever serious means to you.

It's scary. Even if you're not my first. It still happened so fast. But it did with Hawk, too. I guess when it's real, you just know.

❤️

[mygoodsir]

Alright. I will say that I don't take any of them lightly.

You are my first, my most darling, my absolute light.

❤️

[holyposition]

And I haven't gotten a single letter. These modern boys.

I feel like I need a pet name for you now.

[mygoodsir]

And girls.

Oh, dear. I'm a little frightened. Aren't pet names usually based on appearance or habit?

[holyposition]

You ought to start teaching them.

You call me your dearest, your darling, your light. Those aren't any of that.

[mygoodsir]

Perhaps I shall!

Only because you are all of those things.

[holyposition]

I've never been good at them. It always seemed like a luxury that wasn't for me. And all the normal ones sound so...man and woman.

Maybe I'm overthinking it.

[mygoodsir]

Tim Laughlin overthinking? Never!

If you simply call me Harry I am already over the moon, my love.

[holyposition]

Harry. My sweetheart. My big cuddly teddy bear. My awful villain who teases me. 😊

[mygoodsir]

"Big." Now there's something I've never been called before.

A villain though, oh, you make me sound so fearsome.

[holyposition]

Compared to the teddy I had when I was little, you're very imposing. But just as furry.

[mygoodsir]

You must have been such an adorable child.

The lack of body hair on you lot is remarkable.

[holyposition]

I was actually pretty proud of mine, until I met you.

You need me to leave you one of those photos, so you remember?

[mygoodsir]

I am only teasing. You at absolutely perfect.

I meant also in your actions. You'd have been so lively, I think. But I will never say no to any of your photographs. What marvelous things photos are!