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[mygoodsir]

I hate to see you fight so.

Good. I was worried you would not.

[holyposition]

And I hate doing it. If my dream for the future is that exhausting to him, I won't have to do it anymore.

Of course I do, Harry. I'll be home soon.

I'm sorry to have caused a scene. I didn't mean to distract you from helping her.

[mygoodsir]

I don't think it's exhausting to him. He just doesn't have your conviction.

You didn't. And unlike some people, you've the excuse of being young to explain any thoughtlessness.

[holyposition]

It is, he said as much. I don't need him to be as passionate about it as I am, but I need a partner. Not someone who's watching the clock until I'm finished and he can pat me on the head and say how cute it is that I care about things.

It wasn't thoughtless. I'd stand by anything I said this morning.

[mygoodsir]

I see.
You deserve a partner. On that we agree.

I meant focusing on who started an argument at an inappropriate time.

Tim, you always stand by what you say. It is most admirable, provided you never let it make you rigid.

[holyposition]

Were you serious when you said you wanted to come home with me?

Okay. Everything except for that. Sorry.

I've learned and budged on so much, Harry. On magic, and vampires, and McCarthy, and everything outside of heterosexual monogamy that lets us be together. But he doesn't see that, he's too busy being disappointed that I won't abandon God.

[mygoodsir]

Of course I was.

It's alright. I'm less cross with you about it than I am him. He ought to know better.

What? Is THAT what the crux of the issue is?

[holyposition]

Thank you.

How can I make it up to you? I don't want you to be upset with me. I can't take any more.

I don’t know if it's the crux of the issue, exactly, but he hasn't respected it from the start. The morals he finds so boring and irritating mostly come from that. My conviction comes from that. The way I move through the world comes from that. The hope that this place is more than an endless torture chamber which keeps me going comes from that. I would be a different person completely.

[mygoodsir]

Did you think I'd changed my mind?

You don't have to. Honestly, Tim, it's alright.

I admit I have a difficult time understanding why he's so bothered; surely he was raised a Christian, as was I. We may not be the best examples of the faith, but still.

More to the point I don't know how anyone who has known you longer than five minutes could fail to recognise how strongly you feel.

[holyposition]

No. I’m sorry. I don’t want to project all of my problems with him onto you, I’m just shaken up.

He’s bothered because he can’t stand that I answer to something other than him. He’s a control freak.

[mygoodsir]

I understand.

I had noticed that, yes. But you cannot control another man and expect him to truly live.

[holyposition]

Exactly.

Thank you for understanding. It means a lot to me.

[mygoodsir]

I try my best.

Now, don't mistake understanding for approval. I do still wish you'd not make yourself a target for angry vampires.

Do you think he's alright? Armand, that is. He did not look well.

[holyposition]

I've been attacked by an angry vampire once before. I know it's serious. But I believe that helping him be caught before he does it is worth the risk.

I don't know. I doubt anyone will, before he's caught.

[mygoodsir]

My dear, brave Tim.

Than I do hope they find him. I'd hate to find that this is something that may afflict them all.

[holyposition]

I'm not trying to worry anyone. I know I'm just a man, not a comic book hero. But I can't sit and do nothing. I did that for too long back home.

Let's hope it's not spreadable.

[mygoodsir]

Yes. I understand. This place allows us to be who we want to be, perhaps.

Precisely my worry. Although we've seen no evidence of such thus far. I think that I'm just used to looking for such things.

[holyposition]

I'll let you know if I hear anything about it.

And I'll be home in two minutes. Would you lay down with me?

[mygoodsir]

Thank you.

Of course. I may demand some ah, what would you call it? Cuddling.

[holyposition]

That's always included.

🎀

[mygoodsir]

What a bargain.

I'll see you shortly.