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[holyposition]

Dean! And Lestat. I can read.

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[homosexuals]

That's not half the house, and you know I don't really like blondes.

[homosexuals]

I'm sorry I hurt you.

[holyposition]

You always say that, but you keep doing it. And in the same ways.

When we get home, I'm going to live authentically. No matter the cost. I know it'll be steep, and I know it'll be dangerous, but I have to do it. I don't think you'll be able to handle that.

[homosexuals]

Well it doesn't exactly feel so good having certain things thrown in my face either, Skip. The exhibitionist comment, really? Accusing me of being unhelpful - letting people suffer on purpose? ...Embry?

I know you are. I want that for you - I want it for both of us. I've seen what living without you and without the truth looks like, and it's not worth it.

[holyposition]

I wouldn't have to throw it in your face if you weren't doing the same thing a year later.

But the exhibitionist thing was out of line. That's not anyone's business.

You say that now. But you would have had me hide over a pressing, violent incident. There's gonna be threats. From a lot of different angles. Someone, someday, will probably go through with it. If you can't trust my judgement on how to deal with it, why would you want to be with me at all?

[homosexuals]

Last time I checked, Jesus didn't forgive everyone for crucifying him and guilt them when they made a mistake again.

I said some things that were uncalled for too.

I know there will, okay? But the difference is - we'd be together. To work through it together, to protect each other and come up with ways to be impactful and precise in our actions. And yeah, things might come up that are spontaneous. But my ask to you is not to be so goddamn reckless about where and how you jump in to deal with it.

I'm not - judging you for wanting to help. You think I don't want to see things change here or there either? That I don't have feel guilt for the ones I let down and walked over to protect myself? Christ, why the hell do you think I still see Kenny and Lenny and Senator Smith?

[holyposition]

I'm not Him. You can't hold me to a standard you don't even believe in.

I'm not trying to be reckless just to make you mad. You seem to think that because I didn't make the same choice you would have, that I don't think about things before I do them.
Lestat says he's secured, not dead, by the way. So you don't have to worry about him.

Will you be out there with me, making it happen? That's what I thought this was about. This isn't about Harry, is it?

[homosexuals]

I'm not holding you to a standard. I'm just pointing out some mild hypocrisy.

Tim, you replied instantly. Publicly. Would it have killed you to take a second to consider how fast that could have gotten you hurt, or done it privately if you wanted to help?

Tremendous. That's not really the point anymore.

...What? What does Harry have to do with this?

[holyposition]

Forgiving you the first time doesn't mean it doesn't hurt when you do it again.

It was not instant. I don't know how many more ways there are to tell you that I did think about it and decided it was worth the risk to get the information out quickly, so he could be stopped quickly. I'm not saying it again.

Nothing. Just something Embry said.

[homosexuals]

I had a kneejerk reaction. I had hoped - maybe we'd come far enough that you could offer me the same benefit of the doubt and trust me. Is that what it comes down to? Who you think is more "right" in the situation?

Fine. And I'm saying - I still think it was reckless.

What did he say?

[holyposition]

Maybe I would have, if you'd come to me privately instead of trying to order me around in front of everyone.

He thinks you're more upset about it than you're letting on.