[ Stephen has nothing to do with it, because he won't be invited. He doesn't need him.
Maybe it is stupid, but if he feels like he's bleeding, and it looks to him like he's bleeding, then Hawk's attentions look and feel like helping. As much as he bites and snaps and tells anyone who will listen that he doesn't need Hawk anymore, that he doesn't even want him and he's perfectly happy the way things are, he does want the help. This is what he wants every time, before it happens. For Hawk to show up for him the way he needs. ]
About once a month, yeah. I'm... [ He swallows hard, woozy now from blood loss. He stops himself this time from telling Hawk he's got it all over him, because he knows he doesn't, that when he opens his eyes tomorrow that crisp white shirt will still be pristine. ] I think--
[ Tim can't deny it anymore. Two or three is a coincidence, but four? ]
I'm always thinking about you. Upset over you. When this happens.
[ Softly enough that Hawk might believe it isn't meant to be a jab, even if it stings like one. ]
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Date: 2025-11-25 02:58 am (UTC)Nothing.
[ Stephen has nothing to do with it, because he won't be invited. He doesn't need him.
Maybe it is stupid, but if he feels like he's bleeding, and it looks to him like he's bleeding, then Hawk's attentions look and feel like helping. As much as he bites and snaps and tells anyone who will listen that he doesn't need Hawk anymore, that he doesn't even want him and he's perfectly happy the way things are, he does want the help. This is what he wants every time, before it happens. For Hawk to show up for him the way he needs. ]
About once a month, yeah. I'm... [ He swallows hard, woozy now from blood loss. He stops himself this time from telling Hawk he's got it all over him, because he knows he doesn't, that when he opens his eyes tomorrow that crisp white shirt will still be pristine. ] I think--
[ Tim can't deny it anymore. Two or three is a coincidence, but four? ]
I'm always thinking about you. Upset over you. When this happens.
[ Softly enough that Hawk might believe it isn't meant to be a jab, even if it stings like one. ]