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[mygoodsir]

I wasn't worried. You are a gentleman.

Do you like him?

[holyposition]

Yeah. I mostly know him from sharing your bathroom sink, but he seems nice.

[mygoodsir]

Oh, that's capital! I'm so very glad. :)



(He can hear us. I was not aware.)

[holyposition]

He can? How much?

[mygoodsir]

I didn't ask. It wasn't a complaint, he just mentioned that he knows when you're here so he knows not to walk in to my room.

[holyposition]

I thought the bathroom would have given us enough of a buffer. Maybe we should turn on some music next time.

Does he walk in without knocking a lot?

[mygoodsir]

I doubt it was all that noticeable. But if it makes you more comfortable.

Well, in the month of June we more or less wandered in and out of one another's space whenever we felt like it. We're different men now of course, but I admit the habit seems to have remained somewhat. But he shan't do it if he knows I've company.

[holyposition]

The sounds I'm making are just for you.

Are you guys still intimate enough for biting? A leas dramatic version, I mean.

[mygoodsir]

And I do love them.

Ah.

The biting is not something we've engaged in since, but there have been some intimacies. Nothing precisely carnal.

[holyposition]

Raising a snail family together?

[mygoodsir]

Oh, he's so indulgent of them! He's even brought in a few.

Would you mind terribly if we were intimate? Be honest. I care for him very much, but you are my light. I hate upsetting you.

[holyposition]

I wouldn't. As long as he's treating you nicely. And you still have time for me.

[mygoodsir]

I will always, always have time for you. No matter what.

[holyposition]

I was teasing. I know you will.

But I appreciate the warning. Especially if I'll be bumping into him a lot.

[mygoodsir]

Oh! My apologies. I can be a little overbearing!

You probably will.


Oh. If you happen to see what looks like a very young man around, please know he's actually 30.

[holyposition]

You're not at all. It's a nice change of pace.

How young?

[mygoodsir]

Oh, good. Because I cannot seem to stop singing your praises.

Well, I thought he was eighteen last month.

[holyposition]

Wow. He really was shameless. I don't know how to take the fact that you keep getting pulled to men who look younger than they are.

(teasing!)

You're okay, right? I don't want to sound judgemental, that's not what I mean. It's just the last time I was with a bunch of new people in a short time, I was having a really hard time. And trying to distract myself, I guess.

[mygoodsir]

He remains so.

I don't know what to make of it either! I certainly don't go looking for them, they just seem to show up!

I believe I am alright. It's very strange, though. I hate who I was in June, but some people I was close to then I still feel a fondness for. I am lucky in that most of them I already knew - you, Koby, Theo and his wife, Will, "Alaric" - and so anything beyond friendship does not feel forced. But it is slightly unsettling to be so

What is the word?

Slutty.

[holyposition]

I hope I'm not close to aging out of your favor 😜

I feel the same way sometimes. But I care about all the men I'm sleeping with. None of you are strangers or people I'm only choosing because I've been drugged or I'm trying to drown out some bad feelings. As long as you actually care about them and you have the energy to maintain all that, you could definitely do worse.

But you don't have to sleep with them just because the other you did, either. Find what makes you happy. This is a place to discover what you really want.

As long as they're not wringing you dry, if you get what I mean. 😉

[mygoodsir]

Tim! Never! You could be eighty and I'd still love you fervently.

I can't imagine not caring about them. I feel grateful for their presence in my life.

Tim, you remain a beacon of rationality and kindness both. Thank you for your understanding, and for your advice. I am sometimes overwhelmed by the freedom we have here.

Tim! Don't be ridiculous.
I need that for you.

[holyposition]

Just tell me if it's serious?

Yeah. It can be a little much. I'm more comfortable limiting myself, I think, but it's still overwhelming after a whole year. Back home I never thought I'd have one boyfriend I could be public with, let alone two.

Yes you do! 🥰

[mygoodsir]

You mean if I fall in love with them? Yes. I will.

If I had even made it home to England, I could not imagine ever finding anyone to love. I was never very good with courtship in the first place, and after everything else...
But here? I found you. And I so very quickly came to love you. It was frightening, but fantastic.

You are a terribly naughty boy, Tim.

[holyposition]

Or if you think you might. Whatever serious means to you.

It's scary. Even if you're not my first. It still happened so fast. But it did with Hawk, too. I guess when it's real, you just know.

❤️

[mygoodsir]

Alright. I will say that I don't take any of them lightly.

You are my first, my most darling, my absolute light.

❤️