[the apologies that usually stay caught up in his mind, held behind tight lips and careful breaths seem to spill out easier these days. not being as honest, as forthright as possible seems to burn, and koby can't keep himself from saying aloud everything in his head.]
[but the alternative, keeping his thoughts inside -- the images, the symbols, the words and names and places -- is unthinkable. it needs to be heard, or he'll die from carrying it around, he's sure.]
If I write it all out, it'll be okay, I think. Everyone will be warned and safe, if I can do that.
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Date: 2025-09-11 03:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-09-11 03:25 am (UTC)[the apologies that usually stay caught up in his mind, held behind tight lips and careful breaths seem to spill out easier these days. not being as honest, as forthright as possible seems to burn, and koby can't keep himself from saying aloud everything in his head.]
Thank you.
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Date: 2025-09-11 03:44 am (UTC)[ That's for him to do, kneeling in prayer and beating the sins of the day from himself so that Koby won't have to. ]
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Date: 2025-09-11 04:04 am (UTC)[but the alternative, keeping his thoughts inside -- the images, the symbols, the words and names and places -- is unthinkable. it needs to be heard, or he'll die from carrying it around, he's sure.]
If I write it all out, it'll be okay, I think. Everyone will be warned and safe, if I can do that.
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Date: 2025-09-11 04:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-09-11 03:17 pm (UTC)Something.
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Date: 2025-09-11 03:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-09-12 03:26 am (UTC)OH, sorry, sorry, I'm sorry.
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Date: 2025-09-12 03:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-09-12 03:47 am (UTC)That's what I see. The ship, the sea, the ice. I usually see backwards, but
Sometimes it's forwards.
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Date: 2025-09-12 11:49 pm (UTC)Did you see backwards or forwards?
[ Is this place taking him away from Tim, and to his grave? ]
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Date: 2025-09-13 12:26 am (UTC)I don't think
I think backwards. Backwards. He's
They're leaving on the boat. It's backwards.
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Date: 2025-09-14 02:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-09-14 09:30 pm (UTC)But I'll try.