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[smudgy]

hey

[ … ]

i’ve not really been myself since the stupid game
but i wanted to thank u now that i am
almost nobody listened to me

[ not silco, hawk, harry, stephen, the straw hats — ]

i get why
but u did
it meant a lot to me, anyway

[holyposition]

[ A full chain of Jinx texts without emojis...something is wrong. ]

Hi, Jinx. Welcome back 🙂

You're welcome. If I'm completely honest, it was my own bias more than it was your word that made me believe it was Armand. Hawk can be in the middle of trying to apologize, AFTER drying out from his messed up blood addiction that Armand KNEW would happen, and still be making excuses for him.

Still, I appreciated you for being the only other person not under his creepy doll eyes spell. It made me feel like I wasn't crazy. I just wish we'd pushed harder at the start against that "he's not a messy eater" crap

[smudgy]

u still heard me out
my big brothers would just tell me to get lost when i came up with stuff back home

[ not her sister. vi would always listen. ]

u weren’t crazy
still aren’t
all of that was a load of crap straight from the boyfriend brigade 🤢
don’t feel too bad cause u were trying the whole time
and we both missed the wolves next door

[holyposition]

I'll always hear you out.

he would have gotten caught if it weren't for me. Set figured it out, but I pushed back on it because it's Set - I thought he was just stirring up drama for fun. So nobody made the accusation.

[ jem does not exist to him. ]

[smudgy]

[ girl who doesn’t remember most people: for sure ]

i don’t think anybody makes set do anything, tim
he prolly just decided that redhead was his rival or wanted to piss off those little heroes again

[ when he ultimately accused wanda… ]

i didn’t even think about silco
so 🤷‍♀️

[ partly because she has only ever seen him beat people to death, not stab them like a normal person. hm. ]

[holyposition]

He tried to get embry to speak up for him. I convinced him not to.

I thought about just about everyone at some point. Even if it was just to safely rule them out. Figured you were safe, since nobody exploded into a million pieces 💥

[smudgy]

the loud one?
he was too busy yelling at everyone anyway

[ and that’s on crashing out ! respect, she would have done the same. ]

hey that’s what i said!
buffy got mad at me but it’s true i knew i woulda done it different
anyway just cause u were drawing dead doesn’t make it ur fault

i blame armand’s boyfriends like stephen and harry and set way more for koby
hawk too but i already told him off

[holyposition]

Harry isn't his boyfriend. Armand helped him feel better when I was asleep so he couldn't see it, and I've given him enough grief about it, believe me.

[smudgy]

good
i’m tired of getting lectured by old guys
they should get lectured back 😤

but hey if somebody’s ever blowing people up
you have my permission to see it 🫡

[holyposition]

He's not that old. but no man of mine goes without a lecture when he needs one. 🙂

I don't think I want to see anyone get blown up. I had my fill of gore during the games.

[smudgy]

[ he’s pretty old…

but. hm. thinking. ]

are u from a nicer place than this, tim?

[holyposition]

In some ways. I'm free to be who I really am here. That's not possible back home, not without decades of fighting for it. I didn't have my every need provided for, but I don't want that.

The constant danger, and the magic, and the monsters are all new and terrible. I was safe, back home. More or less, as long as I kept my mouth shut.

I'd go back if I could, if that answers your question.

[smudgy]

i just wanted to know because of what u said
about the gore and the explosions
that’s just what it’s like in the fissures
in zaun, where i’m from

are you fighting for it, back home?

[holyposition]

Not yet. From where I was standing before I came here, it just never seemed possible. You might as well fight for a pig’s right to fly. But I learned that it’s possible here. Here, saltburnt, but also back home. Within my lifetime, if I’m lucky.

I intend to join the fight when we find a way back. But it’ll be more political than guns blazing.

I’m sorry you’ve had it so difficult. You deserve a better world than that.

[smudgy]

[ tim pigs might fly in league of legends ? ]

i hear that's smarter than how i do things
but sometimes u need to get people's attention

[ she thinks, briefly, about the first mural she saw after the explosion. the brilliance of all the blues. ]

thanks
everybody down there does
i hope it gets better for u too

[holyposition]

I was like that. Or Teo was, back in June. He taught me some important lessons. Sometimes that kind of strategy is necessary.

My world is close enough to this one that I've got the luxury of knowing that it can. I know I'm luckier than a lot of people for that.