He didn't confront me, a private conversation misfired. He knows he's not in a position to decide who you sleep with.
[ I'm not his keeper had been the phrase. But he has an opinion, and while Tim's still describing their situation as though it isn't a closed book... ]
I see. I had a few of those myself. I'm sorry anyway. That it went there.
I did. He was hounding me, wanting to know who I'd been with since we broke up because he heard I'd gone to Otherworld.
Nothing I did with you was to make him jealous, if that's what you think. He's just a jealous person naturally, he wasn't going to like the answer no matter what I said, unless I lied and said nobody.
I'm not worried about your motivations. I trust you, we had fun. But if you felt like you needed to answer his question, it's complicated enough that it might be something again someday.
I can't knowingly be part of you hurting one another.
I trust you too. I wouldn't have done any of that if I hadn't. Or invited you into our bed.
[ And isn't that the most important thing? He's not sure he could say that truthfully to Hawk right now. He could say that he wants to trust him. He could say that he trusts Harry, and he wants Stephen around, so that should hold more weight.
But it's up to Stephen, isn't it? ]
If you don't want to get dragged into it, I understand. Harry will be disappointed, though 😛
[ It's a pleasant sentiment. A strange kind of proof of friendship, but an earnest one. He's glad of it, after having so publicly broken others' trust.
Then Tim leans into it, playing where Stephen's feeling anything but playful, flirting a toe over the line he's just drawn, and it strikes the wrong chord against the mood he's in. There's a shift. ]
I have something of my own I'm trying not to fuck up. Harry will be fine.
[ Making himself the disrespectful party in somebody else's situation for the sake of a good time isn't the kind of habit he wants to form - not while he's still trying to convince himself he's worthy of the people sharing his bed. ]
[ The immediate apology takes the edge off of his cold snap. And since Tim seems open to self-reflection - ]
If you think someone you care about might feel some kind of way about who you're fucking, whether or not you care about their opinion right now, it's worth telling the person you're getting involved with.
It won't matter to everyone. But I think sooner or later it'll matter to you.
I've been trying to get over him and stop caring about what he thinks. I thought if I just acted like I didn't, then eventually, it would become true. But that hasn't worked.
Not that you need to hear about my indecisive nonsense. I'm sorry I put you in that position. It doesn't matter why I did it.
[ Which he should let be the line under it really, draw it there and start again back on a friendly level next time they run into one another. But an abandoned threesome isn't his only stake in this. ]
It's none of my business now, Tim, but you should figure that out. Before more people have to make your choices for you.
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Date: 2025-12-18 03:01 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2025-12-18 04:05 pm (UTC)I don't know what your situation is, but Hawk isn't thrilled about our time in the back room.
I'm not interested in creating problems. I didn't realize I would be.
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Date: 2025-12-18 04:31 pm (UTC)I'm sorry he bothered you about it. Things are complicated with me and Hawk, but he's in no position to confront you or anyone else I've seen.
[ Yes he is drafting an apology letter to Bob, no that is not a related issue. ]
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Date: 2025-12-18 05:21 pm (UTC)[ I'm not his keeper had been the phrase. But he has an opinion, and while Tim's still describing their situation as though it isn't a closed book... ]
Was it you who told him we slept together?
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Date: 2025-12-18 05:40 pm (UTC)I did. He was hounding me, wanting to know who I'd been with since we broke up because he heard I'd gone to Otherworld.
Nothing I did with you was to make him jealous, if that's what you think. He's just a jealous person naturally, he wasn't going to like the answer no matter what I said, unless I lied and said nobody.
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Date: 2025-12-18 05:56 pm (UTC)I can't knowingly be part of you hurting one another.
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Date: 2025-12-18 07:01 pm (UTC)[ And isn't that the most important thing? He's not sure he could say that truthfully to Hawk right now. He could say that he wants to trust him. He could say that he trusts Harry, and he wants Stephen around, so that should hold more weight.
But it's up to Stephen, isn't it? ]
If you don't want to get dragged into it, I understand. Harry will be disappointed, though 😛
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Date: 2025-12-18 08:40 pm (UTC)Then Tim leans into it, playing where Stephen's feeling anything but playful, flirting a toe over the line he's just drawn, and it strikes the wrong chord against the mood he's in. There's a shift. ]
I have something of my own I'm trying not to fuck up. Harry will be fine.
[ Making himself the disrespectful party in somebody else's situation for the sake of a good time isn't the kind of habit he wants to form - not while he's still trying to convince himself he's worthy of the people sharing his bed. ]
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Date: 2025-12-18 08:49 pm (UTC)Sorry. That was inappropriate.
I don't want to make a mess of your relationships either.
And every choice I make lately has been the wrong one, so thank you. For making it.
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Date: 2025-12-18 10:49 pm (UTC)If you think someone you care about might feel some kind of way about who you're fucking, whether or not you care about their opinion right now, it's worth telling the person you're getting involved with.
It won't matter to everyone. But I think sooner or later it'll matter to you.
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Date: 2025-12-18 11:01 pm (UTC)I've been trying to get over him and stop caring about what he thinks. I thought if I just acted like I didn't, then eventually, it would become true. But that hasn't worked.
Not that you need to hear about my indecisive nonsense. I'm sorry I put you in that position. It doesn't matter why I did it.
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Date: 2025-12-23 02:11 pm (UTC)[ Which he should let be the line under it really, draw it there and start again back on a friendly level next time they run into one another. But an abandoned threesome isn't his only stake in this. ]
It's none of my business now, Tim, but you should figure that out. Before more people have to make your choices for you.
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Date: 2025-12-23 09:10 pm (UTC)I'm figuring that out. I won't let that happen again.
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Date: 2025-12-26 02:58 pm (UTC)A little. I've set him up with somewhere to clear his head.
Good.
Good luck with it.
[ He can't imagine untangling all that's going to be easy. ]
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Date: 2025-12-26 06:25 pm (UTC)