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[mygoodsir]

Darling, hush. It doesn't matter.

You taught me what romantic love is. Do you understand that? I will love you as long as I draw breath. No matter what. No matter who else comes into my life, or into yours.

To me there is nothing wrong with you.

[holyposition]

It does matter. Being that person [ Who opened his eyes to what love could be, like Hawk had for him ] only makes it easier for me to hurt you, and I don't want to do that. If this place makes it impossible, then I'm still sorry. I don't want anyone to feel the way I've felt. Especially not you.

Come home. Please. You can make me pay for it. Or you can hold me until we fall asleep. Either. both. anything you want.

[mygoodsir]

Tim, people hurt one another. It's what we do. But it's such a small part of it, and you worry overmuch.

You make me feel like the luckiest man alive every day.

I'm not going to punish you, Tim. But I am on my way.

[holyposition]

It doesn't have to be.

I'm so grateful for you. I've never been so sure about anything. Do you know that?

I'll put the kettle on for you.

[mygoodsir]

On this we disagree.

No. But it does my heart good to hear it. I had thought sometimes early on that I should not have confessed my love to you, but by God am I glad that I did.

You spoil me.

[holyposition]

If you hadn't said it first, I would have done it before too long. I'd already known by the time I died.

We can curl up and watch a movie?

[mygoodsir]

But you hadn't promised not to.

That would be lovely. One of your musicals?

[holyposition]

In hindsight, I don't know if that was a fair ask. It's not like you can control it.

It's what I needed to hear, in that moment.

If you don't mind it. something with gene kelly

[mygoodsir]

I can't blame him for asking. It's frightening to consider others may love the one you do.

I love you, Timothy Laughlin. Always.

You'd leave me for Mr. Kelly, though. ;)

[holyposition]

I know. Trust me, I do.

I would not! He very publicly left the Catholic Church, I got in trouble with my mother for still going to his movies.

And, you know. I love you. 😊

[mygoodsir]

Know that I am yours.

And now here you are with a Protestant.

Yes, but I can't dance like that.

[holyposition]

I'll get you into a confession someday. I haven't given up.

Nobody can!

[mygoodsir]

I can't imagine how.

You dance well.

[holyposition]

It'll be easier when we're out of here, and there’s a real priest in the booth instead of perverts.

Not like THAT

[mygoodsir]

I'm not so sure about that.

No.
But you're easy to waltz about. A very pleasant armful.

[holyposition]

Let me dream 😝

Your armful is waiting ❤️

[mygoodsir]

I'll be but a moment.

[holyposition]

[ A few days and too much exposure to the golden age of MGM later: ]

Your voyeur profile said "the cuck chair"?

[mygoodsir]

Yes, I had to ask what that meant.

[holyposition]

What DOES it mean?

[mygoodsir]

That I enjoy my partners having sexual relations with other people.

[holyposition]

Oh.

I know you liked hearing about it after the Otherworld party.

Is it really just about wanting me to enjoy myself?

[mygoodsir]

I don't know. I really never gave it much thought.

I did enjoy watching you with Hawk.

[holyposition]

I understand a threesome. That's...sharing. You spoiled me because you both love me.

I don't really get wanting to hear about it after, or watching from the side.





I'd like to. If I know what you get out of it, maybe I can accommodate.

[mygoodsir]

Yes, of course.

I don't know that I can explain. It's a bit to do with the fact that you're just so achingly beautiful. There is no world in which I wouldn't want to watch you in the throes of passion.

And it's a bit to do with jealousy, and possession. When you tell me what you've done, you do so to clear your conscience. I listen to give you that, of course, but I've found it has a decidedly erotic appeal. It stings, but in a way that inspires a great desire to prove that you do not belong to them.

I know it sounds insane.